new year, new and old me
hi ✮ ⋆ ˚｡𖦹 ⋆｡°✩
it's been very very long! last time I posted was in july last year, a very fucked up capsule of time to look back into before writing this. life is a lot different now.
the thing i desperately want to write about is my relationship, so i will; we're getting better! they've moved back in with me in july and it's been a journey.
now i'm able to see how much hurt i've caused them last year, and i'm so deeply ashamed and sorry. we had multiple conversations about it and we might have many more, it's going to be a long process of rebuilding trust (for both of us).
just as i was pretty much a piece of shit for the longest time, ever since we got back together there was a long period of time where they would hurt me as sort of a "revenge" thing - unintentionally. we talked a lot about this too, and right now i really believe we'll be ok.
there's still some stuff to figure out, and we will.
aside from that, the studio i (and my partner, too) used to work at is most likely closing down in the next few weeks. it's been in a shitty financial situation for a couple of years since the pandemic and it's been getting worse and worse until, well, i think it's unavoidable by now. i have sent in job applications every single day since new years, no good responses yet, but i'm waiting! they'll come.
there have been some other news on other departments of life, some loss, lots of change. don't really feel like writing about that now.
i guess that's enough of an update.
see you in a couple of months ฅ՞•ﻌ•՞ฅ